Tag: neurodivergence
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The tarot diaries: ace of pentacles
My collage for the ace of pentacles 
this week’s edition of The Tarot Diaries is now available. We’re talking about the ace of pentacles, how the hand is offering you the pentacle just as Morpheus offered Neo the red pill out of the matrix, about analog practice, about cooking and the moments that make sobriety and presence worth it.
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Creative cycle diagram, and a creative co-working video for body doubling
This is an expansion on the creative cycle model that came through earlier this summer. I am on week seven of the artists way, this came through during a morning pages session and I had to create it in procreate. Would anyone like a free printable? -
ADHD mom trying to be Soccer mom
A vulnerable representation of me, a ADHD mom, trying really hard to do soccer mom things because my kids need to run.
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I am a garden
Growth for no other pleasure than my own
Collage on paper with image transfer, magazine images, vintage and painted papers -
Suddenly I’m writing poetry everyday
And it’s been years since I’ve been able to do that. Going to keep sharing because if my other creative practices have taught me anything, it’s that I enjoy sharing my creations. It makes me feel like a kid again.
A winter spell 
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More abstract collage; grateful for this
Found my way back to inspiration for my favorite form of expression. Often I will go on creative sprints and then feel the need to take a break from this particular medium. Always a happy return. Completed after doing some Oracle art tonight. Readings still available in my Etsy, and they include a lovely one-of-a-kind mixed media artwork to go along with your message, affirmation and prompts. shops on sale 25% until Valentine’s Day.
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Honestly
What colleges have you attended?
College is a touchy subject for me because it was a struggle. So, I won’t go into ALL of the colleges I’ve attended.
Most of my education was done at Northern Illinois University. I ended up graduating from Easten Illinois University. It took me almost 13 years to complete college. I think I went to six different schools in that time.
Education is different for everyone. Had I a chance to do things over, I would not have gone away to college. I would have researched more and gone through my other options.
But it’s not helpful to dwell on the past.
A mixed media journal spread. Surprisingly, I never went to school for writing or art. Other than briefly attempting a class in graphic design, I ended up graduating in general studies. -
My biggest challenge: consistency
My biggest challenge for most of my life has been my inability to stay consistent with my goals. In recent years, since getting sober, I have been able to push myself through some of the resistance. Ultimately, I didn’t see a huge transformation with it until I received my ADHD diagnosis. Everything suddenly took off.
My creative journaling practice, my writing, and finally a movement practice have all become staples in my everyday life. I am so grateful. I am working through some of the grief, anger and loss that have come with realizing I have been trying to hold myself to unrealistic standards most of my life. Growing up with undiagnosed ADHD didn’t look difficult on the surface (I was labeled a gifted kid) but it was exhausting, and all fell apart once I went to college and no longer had the stability I grew up with.
It is hard to acknowledge that had I known this about myself, so much could have been different. Perhaps I wouldn’t have signed over years of my life to alcoholism. Perhaps I wouldn’t have flunked out of college. Maybe I would have cared for my body as the sacred vessel that it is.
I am sitting with these complex feelings, and often process them as I sit with my art journal, because I know that I must feel them, and let them go. It is not helpful to hang on to this longing for times past. All I can do is manage my life as it is happening right now. And right now, I am pretty proud of how far I have come.
Starmoth Press 